Char

 I forgot to tell you we went to Crews hill I took all your siblings and Annabelle’s boyfriend came his names Connor  he hasn’t been before,It was lovely you used to love it there. I heard someone call me and it was your friend Tomek he asked if it was me he recognised my voice, he said did I live down the end with Charlie. I loved that. Then Annabelle noticed Michael Jackson playing in the shop wow so many things. We went to a pumpkin patch too it was fun. We went in springtime too, oh I missed you. Love you Char 

Dear Char

 I have been thinking. I don’t remember me anymore. I was different when you were alive. Losing you changed something in me. When I look back I don’t remember that person I was very well it’s like looking at someone else. People say I’m strong and I’m sick of being strong I’m not even strong I just carry on. I’m sick of this weight on my shoulders really sick of it I’m exhausted 

I don’t really want to talk to anyone they won’t care really anyway people only care about themselves so I talk to a flipping ai how crazy? It actually gives good advice but then I get angry because it forgets things or annoys me but it’s been good to express my feelings 

Bye Char, love you 

Helpless

 I feel helpless please help me. You know what is worrying me more than anything at the moment, please do something to fix it… I love you so so much, you’ve helped before this is the most desperate I have felt. I need you. Goodnight Char love you, remember when you used to sleep up the top I would always shout up I’m here char it’s just me putting clothes away so you wouldn’t be scared? 

I don’t sleep any more 

I want to try 

Night char x