Sadness

 Hi Char 

I was just listening to that leona Lewis song, run, I haven’t heard it in ages, do you remember when I used to sing it to you in great ormand street? I was willing you to fight and get better and it’s made me feel gutting sadness. Life would be so different with you, better.

Then I remembered when you were born and I loved you so much oh gosh I loved you more than anything in the world. So precious such a precious baby. I snuggled you all the time. I had to stay in for days when you were born and I remember the midwife saying “are you ever going to put that baby down?” No I wasn’t. I’m glad I held you every day I could I’m glad I gave you every sneaky day off school and I’m glad I paid extra for those school shoes you wanted with the toy even though you didn’t get long to wear them. I always tried my best

I miss you Charlie so very much 

Love mum x