I’m sad

 Dear little Charlie I’m sad.

 I used to be able to you on your Facebook but some xxxt hacked it and I haven’t been able to get it back so sometimes I want to tell you something and I cant go to Facebook anymore 

I really miss you. You were so kind and respectful and funny. It’s almost your birthday I think we might go to Woburn and see the rhinos I think you would love that.

T lost his guinea pig have you got her? I imagine you with Zohan and Ronnie and all the guinea pigs around you and I imagine you running with them. 

I feel like a bit of a failure at the moment I hope you’re with me sometimes I feel it. I feel so overwhelmed and out of control I always have to fight why can’t there just be peace? I will keep fighting like always. I hope you’re alright. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you what a joke that your mum couldn’t fix it 

I miss you so much

Mummy x